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[on courage and motherhood…] fort worth photography

“You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, ‘I lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.”
Eleanor Roosevelt

It takes courage to be a mother.  As moms we face the fear of making mistakes, not having all the answers or simply not being “good enough”.  It takes courage to put another life ahead of yours, giving up your own dreams at times so your child may achieve theirs.  It takes courage to love so unabashedly that the mere thought of your child in pain brings you to tears.  It is courage, that after the end of a very long day of diapers, crying, meetings, dinner and homework, pushes you to read that bedtime story and kiss those cheeks goodnight.  It’s courage that gives the special needs mom the strength and unending patience her job requires.  It is sheer courage that stands up to misinformed teachers, caregivers, neighbors and glares at the grocery store.  And it is immense courage that gives strength to the mom who watches her child endure chemotherapy and faces unfathomable decisions.

Yes, the job of mothering is not for the faint hearted.  It is the most important job on earth.

My mother is one of the most courageous people I know.  She had courage when she moved to a foreign country to be a missionary.  She had courage when my sister’s birth mom changed her mind about the adoption yet called for a ride home from the hospital.  In spite of how painful she knew it would be, Mom cared enough to help this poor girl get home.  During that fateful car ride she decided that Mom, was indeed, the mother for her daughter.  I wonder what would have happened had she lacked the courage to give that ride?  My mother has shown me what true courage is, but never more than this past winter.  She faced a life changing health crisis with as much grace and dignity as I have ever seen.  She was BRAVE beyond words in the face of an uncertain outcome.  Her faith and courage inspire me.  She never for one moment doubted God’s love or plan for her.  I am so grateful for my mother’s health and courage.

To all you “mother warriors” out there, and you know who you are,  know that you matter.  You are appreciated and loved and you are COURAGEOUS.

me and mom….

[beautifully stubborn...] ft worth child photographer

[Per-se-ver-ance ]- 1.-steady persistence in a course of action, a purpose, a state, etc., esp. in spite of difficulties, obstacles, or discouragement.  2.- continuance in a state of grace to the end

Most of the time you will find my boy tucked away in a corner, lost in his own world…reading.  Colton turned 12 this week and said to me “Mom, I feel like it’s been a lot longer than twelve years..I think I should be older”.  He is right….not because he has faced his share of adversity and challenge, but because he is an old soul.  He is a contradiction-so innocent for his age yet wise beyond his years.  As some of you may know Colton is diagnosed with PDD-NOS (pervasive developmental disorder-autism spectrum) and ADD.  I have mentioned before how difficult the early years were and for some time we weren’t sure he would ever read, so watching him devour books gives me great joy!  I am reluctant at times to keep writing about what is “wrong” with Colton…but honestly, there is nothing “wrong” with the way he is at all.  I have come to embrace the way his brain works and to see in a new way because of him.  I write updates about his condition because I know there are many other families facing the same challenges and reading a positive story offers hope.  Hope is a huge weapon in this fight my friends..this I know for sure.  So here is a little update.

Colton has been dismissed from all his therapy, speech and OT.  He has been completely mainstreamed with his peers.  Last year his teachers told me that what they saw in Colton was sheer determination, a hard-headed perseverance that would not give up.  They even mentioned how great it would be to bottle what he has! lol   His grades are excellent and he is quite the walking encyclopedia.  It would seem that the stubbornness that once made life so hard has been channeled in the right direction  We all love Colton very much and I am so excited to see what life has in store for my special boy.  I put together a short video for his birthday.  I hope to do more picture/video compilations in the future…I hope you enjoy it.   Happy Birthday Colton-man!


[my guy, a birthday post..] dfw area child photographer

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It’s hard for me to believe that my youngest boy is 11 years old today!  Time certainly does fly and I find myself wandering down memory lane today reminiscing over his years.  Of all of my children even though he isn’t the youngest, Colton has always been my baby.  I can’t explain it because he is an old soul, even a precocious child at times, but there is something undoubtedly innocent about him.  Perhaps it’s the manner in which he views the world, or in the way he tells things just how they are and expects nothing less from anyone else.  He is special in so many ways- as are all of my children each having their own unique charm- but if you let him, Colton will steal your heart in a glance… and never give it back.  Happy Birthday my sweet boy you are more loved than you will ever know!

{a few old snapshots}

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I think I have rubbed off on him a bit, because his latest interest involves vintage/retro comics.  He wanted to bring one for his bday photoshoot!  He is a superhero fanatic!

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